Immortality

Having children as a form of immortality or as something to have control over is a reason that people do have children.

I remember having a conversation with Caleb when we were still living in Kansas. He told me that he thought it was cool to think that a piece of himself would continue to live on through his children even when he died. He liked the idea of being part of a bloodline. That conversation still floats around in my head, because it took me by surprise.

That's not an idea that I've ever been connected to. Maybe it's because I think of our children as their own, unique, people. I'm focused on them developing their own selves rather than me living vicariously through them. Caleb doesn't try to live vicariously through our children, nor does he force them to do things just because they interest him. Yet, he does think it's cool that a piece of him will live on through his children.

I wonder if it's a "Man Thing" to think this way? I certainly don't have the answers. I also don't think there's anything wrong with that thought, especially when he is such a spectacular father. The idea is just one of those things that have caught my attention about how we connect with our inner selves and how we expect ourselves to be carried on through external circumstances.

I've heard other parents talk about their children, and have remorse when they grow up, because then the parent can't control them anymore. I'm not driven to try and control my children, either. Maybe that will change during these coming teenage years...?

Maybe it's because I'm a medium that I'm not so concerned with a piece of me living on through my children? I know our spirits are always around, and it doesn't matter if our children do anything to keep our memory alive. I do a lot of work in my 5th and 6th Kosha, and that inner self is where I connect with God and immortality.